Last summer I was a jump skip and a hop from being completely broke and ending up back home. I tried going back to school but it did not work out so well for me financially, I pretty much almost ended up filing Daytona Chapter 7 because I got myself neck deep in debt. I ended up staying with my sister for about five months and then finding my own run down place. I feel like I am starting all over again. Like I peaked when I was living in Naperville after college and now it is back to horrible apartments and barely making it from check to check, working two or three jobs and getting no sleep along the way. All of this while trying to chase a dream. I really want to find something stable but I cannot see myself giving up on my dream just yet. I feel like I have worked to hard and have been disappointed to many times to just throw in the towel now. It is like after all that, I want it to be worth something. I do not want to be defeated. I just think I would feel like a failure if I gave up.